It's one year since I started this Blog. If things had worked out I should now have a 4 month old baby. But I haven't!!! What has happened is that I have spent more time in hospital than ever before, I have left the full time job I had 12 months ago and I have started (and nearly finished) a Teaching Assistant Course - although am officially unemployed as I am claiming Job Seekers Allowance. I have had a number of major rows with my mother as I try to discover the meaning of family and deal with both the miscarriage and the death of my father, as well as see a number of friends get pregnant and have babies while I sit and watch. However, I can't say I am depressed at this moment in time. I feel the best I have felt in a long time - even before 'the trouble'. I feel quite healthy and happy with my lot and following the fiasco with my operation, me and the Bull have started to 'Scatter-bomb the area' so I have not completely given up hope!!
What was upsetting for a few days - more so for the Bull than me - was the news that the Bulls brother and his wife are pregnant and due early February - almost a year after I would have been due! The aim now is to catch them up.......
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