What does the future really hold?

Last night I organised a little party with three friends and a local clairvoyant www.susanwinter.co.uk/ Of course there were a number of things I wanted to know. She asked whether I was having 'treatment' which I think meant having the cyst removed. She says once that's done (she says 3months) everything will come fine. She sees a celebration in the Summer......Apparently she sees 3 children; a single birth and then twins. She sees a boy in there but they won't be all the same sex!

HAPPY EASTER!!

Can you believe it is snowing out there?

Off to build a snowman....

Have a wonderful day whoever and wherever you may be!!

Families

A few weeks ago we had a family birthday party for my uncle (my dad’s brother). One of the presents for my uncle was a framed set of photographs of himself and his family i.e. my dad, their sister and their parents. This was the first time I had seen a photograph of my grandparents. I was told that I must have met them while they were still alive but I can’t remember. It does state that my dad was born in 1936 which would have made him 72 this year.

Some of the family at the party I had not seen for seven years since the last celebration. For some of the family it was even longer. I was almost in tears when I saw the photograph of the grandparents especially as I was talking to my auntie and she dismissed my sadness at never having met them or having a copy of the photograph. But I think what I learnt is that even if my dad was still alive, it may still have been that we would not have seen the family. I’m not sure he got on with his sister and brother. I am on good terms with my cousin and I do hope to see more of her (and her family) in the future. But I have spent the years since my dad’s death mourning the lack of family, but actually there isn’t much there to start with. In the end, what actually is family?

The Motivated Mind

Recently read The Motivated Mind by Dr Raj Persaud, which I must admit was not what I expected from the title. The book ends with a discussion on suicide so I was a bit confused as to what the Dr wanted to say! However he did have something to say which I felt was aimed at me. He said that Perfectionists are plagued by self doubt (they dwell on their failures) which is counter productive. Because perfectionists urge themselves to the limits of endurance, they leave no spare capacity to cope with added stress from the environment. This leads to added strain and weariness. The terror of only middling accomplishment means that those who feel tired all the time perhaps avoid too much activity when trying to rest. Feeling tired all the time is a clue to having over pushed yourself for reasons to do with ambitions. Maniacal rushing is down to deep insecurities that will never be appeased by sheer effort, no matter how much is achieved. That sums me up to a tee at the moment!

So, (according to the good Dr.) I need to:
Stop looking for approval.
Don’t be afraid of failure. The fear of failure stops us succeeding.
Invest your energy in the right things. Prioritize!
Take a break!! Exercise!

Just because someone throws you a ball, doesn’t mean you have to catch it!

Who are you feeding?

In the March edition of Psychologies David Servan-Schreiber tells the following story:
A wise old Indian, explained to his grandson that within each of us there are two wolves locked in combat. One wolf represents anger, jealousy, pride, fear and shame; the other stands for gentleness, kindness, gratitude, hope, happiness and love. Anxiously, the small boy asks him: 'And which wolf is stronger, grandpa?' The old Indian replies, 'The one you feed.'

It's been a weird old week

Starting of course with Mothers Day on Sunday; which was really nice. The company was better than the food. My brothers wife and his father in law came along with me and my mum. Having only recently lost my brothers mother in law, I thought it might be a bit upsetting but we ended up talking and laughing about both her and my father.

Monday came around and by then I was 4 days late with my period so went and did a test which came back negative. Unfortunately, I then began to feel very sick and by tea time I was throwing up at hourly intervals. This lasted all through the night. This meant I spent Tuesday in bed and most of Wednesday, until I got my appetite back and had to drag myself to the shop for some chocolate's and crisps!! Thursday arrived and still no period so another test was purchased which also came back negative. Then started to worry as had a niggly pain that I had just about convinced myself to be a baby....

Consequently, I ended up in A&E seeing the On Call Dr. She was very good; took my blood pressure, temperature, pulse and checked my urine. A third negative test!! Left feeling better and went straight to the pub!! Note to self: Best time to go to A&E is 6.30pm - hardly anyone waiting and was straight in and out!!

Next morning rang the Gyne secretary and told her about my trip.....she looked through the appointments and has booked my operation in for the 30th April. Now I really have got something to worry about!!!

Bumps and Cracks...

The latest newsletter from Gill Edwards www.livingmagically.co.uk/ ends with these words: Listen to your heart, and trust in your emotions to tell you whether you’re moving towards your dreams and desires. If you feel bad, change how you are thinking about your situation - then the situation can change. (Sometimes this means getting angry for a while, as a first step towards self-empowerment and letting go.) Life can never be perfect in an evolving Universe. After all, it is the imperfections and contrast which help us to clarify what we want, and launch new futures. So we have to get used to the bumps and cracks in the road! But also remember that this is a magical Universe, which is designed to bring you everything your heart desires. As the song says: Don’t worry - be happy!

Saint Theresa's Prayer

May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be content knowing you are a child of God.
Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.