Monday was my pre-op chat at the hospital. Blood, urine, heart, pulse etc. etc. Hated every minute of it!! I do hope I will be able to go through with the Op next Wednesday and don't do something stupid like faint or run off. I was really panicky on Monday and had to go to the toilet far too many times, but at least I could eat to boost up my strength. Good old emergency Snickers bar... Am not allowed to eat after midnight the day before my op. Water only until 6am on the morning of the Op.
It seems that I am 'fit for my op' and so next Wednesday I am to report to the ward at 7.30am and fingers crossed I could be out for tea time as it is a morning list. Just been reading the 'Information for Patients' leaflet and I can already feel the panic rising....
Wednesday 23 April 2008
Thursday 10 April 2008
Turning the Corner
After many weeks of uncertainty in my life, I finally feel like I am getting somewhere. I have got myself a place on a Teaching Assistant Course and negotiated a morning in a local school. I have been and signed on, so hopefully should get my course paid for and some money coming in. I think I am feeling better about life in general...
Recently read The NLP Coach by Ian McDermott and Wendy Jago, Piatkus (2001) which was really just a positive thinking manual with longer words, but it did make a lot of sense.
Treating yourself as though you matter is the quickest way to help you feel that you do matter.
Once you stop thinking of yourself, your potential and your ways of operating as fixed and begin to treat them as processes, change becomes just another adjustment you can make.
It also made me analyse myself and how I appear to the world and how I want to appear. One thing the clairvoyant said when she came, was that I tend to put up a brick wall when it comes to my feelings. I always thought I was quite open with them, but recently I realise I talk about the facts of what happened rather than how I felt. I know I still have to deal with the emotions surrounding both the miscarriage and the death of my father. I have kept these at a distance but need to now bring them closer. Non-expression leads to Depression (Ian said) but each journey starts with a single step.....
Recently read The NLP Coach by Ian McDermott and Wendy Jago, Piatkus (2001) which was really just a positive thinking manual with longer words, but it did make a lot of sense.
Treating yourself as though you matter is the quickest way to help you feel that you do matter.
Once you stop thinking of yourself, your potential and your ways of operating as fixed and begin to treat them as processes, change becomes just another adjustment you can make.
It also made me analyse myself and how I appear to the world and how I want to appear. One thing the clairvoyant said when she came, was that I tend to put up a brick wall when it comes to my feelings. I always thought I was quite open with them, but recently I realise I talk about the facts of what happened rather than how I felt. I know I still have to deal with the emotions surrounding both the miscarriage and the death of my father. I have kept these at a distance but need to now bring them closer. Non-expression leads to Depression (Ian said) but each journey starts with a single step.....
Monday 7 April 2008
Blog Baby 6
Message from proud father (bleeding lips Lancaster):
Well what an amazing Sunday we had. Church in the morning, baby in the afternoon and back for dinner. Well I was back for dinner. Had a mad dash from Ilminster at 4:45pm arriving at Musgrove Hospital at5:09 and Helen gave birth to James Elliott Lancaster at 5:11, barely had time to take her trousers off!!!! Oh yes the weight....... 2.5 stone I think.???... which is about 7.5lbs.
Well what an amazing Sunday we had. Church in the morning, baby in the afternoon and back for dinner. Well I was back for dinner. Had a mad dash from Ilminster at 4:45pm arriving at Musgrove Hospital at5:09 and Helen gave birth to James Elliott Lancaster at 5:11, barely had time to take her trousers off!!!! Oh yes the weight....... 2.5 stone I think.???... which is about 7.5lbs.
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