25th February / Visit to the Hospital

The 25th February was the date I had been given as my due date. It came and went without much of a fuss; although I am still quite teary. The trauma of the miscarriage seems to be never ending as the cyst is still there. Consequently I had another trip to the hospital last week. Where do I start? Well, I got there and again the consultant I had been referred to see was not there. This time he was on his holiday. The Doctor who I did see I could not understand him. I am conscious here of trying desperately NOT to sound racist but the truth of the matter is that I could hardly understand a word he said, and could definitely not read the notes he was writing in my file. I came out in tears. A nurse however, asked me to step into a quiet room and asked me what the matter was. She then went back to the Dr and asked him to clarify what he had said. This, I felt, wasted so much time. How many more patients might have left without finding out what he had said / meant? Basically he gave me three options: wait and see for another 6 months, have a Laparoscopy (cut me open to look at my womb, tubes and ovaries) or a more invasive procedure to actually remove the cyst.

When I went to see the Consultant who was not there last time, I asked whether the cyst had any impact on trying for a baby. Then (October) she said it did not. This time however, when I asked the nurse to check, I was told that it reduces my chance of conception by 50% and also increases the likelihood of a miscarriage if the baby develops in that ovary. So for 4 months I have thought they didn’t really have anything to do with each other and now I am told the cyst has a lot to do with pregnancy!! Upset? Stressed? Me?

I have opted for the Laparoscopy. The waiting list is about 3 months and I should get a date in the next 4-6 weeks.