25th February / Visit to the Hospital

The 25th February was the date I had been given as my due date. It came and went without much of a fuss; although I am still quite teary. The trauma of the miscarriage seems to be never ending as the cyst is still there. Consequently I had another trip to the hospital last week. Where do I start? Well, I got there and again the consultant I had been referred to see was not there. This time he was on his holiday. The Doctor who I did see I could not understand him. I am conscious here of trying desperately NOT to sound racist but the truth of the matter is that I could hardly understand a word he said, and could definitely not read the notes he was writing in my file. I came out in tears. A nurse however, asked me to step into a quiet room and asked me what the matter was. She then went back to the Dr and asked him to clarify what he had said. This, I felt, wasted so much time. How many more patients might have left without finding out what he had said / meant? Basically he gave me three options: wait and see for another 6 months, have a Laparoscopy (cut me open to look at my womb, tubes and ovaries) or a more invasive procedure to actually remove the cyst.

When I went to see the Consultant who was not there last time, I asked whether the cyst had any impact on trying for a baby. Then (October) she said it did not. This time however, when I asked the nurse to check, I was told that it reduces my chance of conception by 50% and also increases the likelihood of a miscarriage if the baby develops in that ovary. So for 4 months I have thought they didn’t really have anything to do with each other and now I am told the cyst has a lot to do with pregnancy!! Upset? Stressed? Me?

I have opted for the Laparoscopy. The waiting list is about 3 months and I should get a date in the next 4-6 weeks.

Todays Quote:

When God closes a door, he opens a window. We may have to break our backs to finding the window, but its out there, so keep looking.
Kate O’Hearn (Author) Writing Magazine: March 2008

Blog Baby 4 & 5

Paul, Beth and Ruben are delighted to welcome safely to the world Benjamin Paul Vella.
Born 24th January at 8:42am, weighing 3.4kg / 7lb 8oz.
Mother, babe, brother and dad all doing very well!

Brendan and Sarah sent me a text on the 2nd February re: Declan born 8lb 12oz at 0024hrs.

Congratulations!!

Audrey Hepburn Quote:

Towards the end of her life, she was asked about her beauty secrets.
She replied:
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run its fingers through it once a day.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed and redeemed. Never throw out anybody.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole. True beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows.

(from February's edition of Psychologies see: www.psychologies.co.uk)