Recently read The Procrastinators Guide to Success by Lynn Lively McGraw-Hill (1999)
Here are a few gems to think about;
You always have a choice, and that choice is to do something or do nothing.
Doing nothing is one of the most powerful choices you can make.
Do things right and you will have fewer things to do over.
Procrastination is all in your head. Projects aren’t ‘hard’ they are ‘interesting’
Seek new mind sets. Define yourself and your tasks differently.
Success means entering the Risk Zone. Things might go wrong or go right.
Push yourself: courage comes from within.
You get a second chance. Have the courage to take it.
Wednesday, 28 May 2008
Tuesday, 27 May 2008
Quote for Today...
Only those who dare to go too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
T. S. Elliott
From www.susanjeffers.com/home/quotes.cfm
T. S. Elliott
From www.susanjeffers.com/home/quotes.cfm
Friday, 16 May 2008
I finally met my Consultant....
....and I was ready for him as had written out a list of questions to raise with him to make sure I got all the answers I need. His young trainee 'Felix' who I met just before my operation was with him and it seemed as if they were prepared for us......just about as soon as we sat down my Consultant said 'We were aware of your umbilical hernia'.
I asked him to look at the lumps that had appeared around my scar but was re-assured that they were normal - haematomas - and he then explained what actually happened during the operation. They attempted the laparoscopy - laterally - but felt it unwise to go on after they caught some muscle. My consultant again explained the reasons for a laparoscopy and we discussed the issues of pregnancy, miscarriage and fertility. It was agreed I would return in a year for another scan to check on its status; but for now it will be left alone....
I think I feel better; although I have been drafting a letter to send to the Chief Executive with regards to some of the issues that arose during my treatment.
I asked him to look at the lumps that had appeared around my scar but was re-assured that they were normal - haematomas - and he then explained what actually happened during the operation. They attempted the laparoscopy - laterally - but felt it unwise to go on after they caught some muscle. My consultant again explained the reasons for a laparoscopy and we discussed the issues of pregnancy, miscarriage and fertility. It was agreed I would return in a year for another scan to check on its status; but for now it will be left alone....
I think I feel better; although I have been drafting a letter to send to the Chief Executive with regards to some of the issues that arose during my treatment.
Wednesday, 14 May 2008
Operation Update....
It's nearly two weeks since the operation - although should I say ‘Operation’ - as I didn’t actually have the laparoscopy I was supposed to have. To be honest I am not really sure what happened. I arrived at the hospital at 7.30am as requested and was shown to a bed in the day ward. Although there were 4 beds on the ward, luckily I was the only inhabitant the whole time I was there. Visits by two anesthetists – separately - who asked about family history, fillings etc. Asked about pre-med but was told as had not signed consent form could not have any. Also I was first on the list and having a pre-med would possibly change my place in the queue. Then visited by a female Dr who ran through what would happen and asked me to sign the consent form. She actually said ‘we will be going through your belly button’ to which I replied ‘I don’t have one’. (I had an umbilical hernia as a child). Although I have told everyone I have seen, this was the first time someone actually looked at it. However, she said this would be fine. As she was leaving I was then introduced to someone called Felix who asked me what was happening. As at this stage I knew no different I told him about the miscarriage and why I was advised to have the cyst removed. He didn’t really seem to know or understand much about my predicament and didn’t question or query my reasons (as I saw them) for having the operation. However, I don’t really know who he was.
Following the operation I remember waking in the recovery room and being confused as to the time. I had been told that my operation would only last half an hour and it was nearly two and a half hours later. The first thing I said (other than demanding more pain killers) was ‘Did everything go OK?’ I was told that the Doctor would come and discuss the operation with me. I was aware that I would not be let home unless I eat, drank and went to the toilet so I was drinking water as soon as I returned to the ward. I was actually very thirsty anyway. As soon as I could, I asked the nurse if I could go to the toilet and wanted to go to the one on the ward as opposed to using a commode. I managed to sit up with help but then came over all faint and had to lie back down. I then had what I believe was a panic attack but it may just have been the fact that I felt so faint. While this was happening my anesthetist walked past and my nurse asked him to come in. They checked my blood pressure and found that it was low. As he was leaving my anesthetist asked me how I was and then said in a jovial manner ‘It didn’t go according to plan then?’ The way he told the story was that when my consultant saw my umbilical hernia scar he was surprised at its existence.
I was more than a little upset to find out on the off chance that the operation had not gone according to plan – especially as the anesthetic said it was because of apparent lack of knowledge of my umbilical hernia. At this stage we asked to see the consultant for him to explain exactly what happened. The female Dr came to see us again after about 45minutes of us asking. She explained why they could not do the operation – because of the umbilical hernia. We further requested to see my consultant; although I did not know who he was when he did arrive as this was the first time I had met him; although I have been under him since my first referral in August / September 2007 (8months). I still wonder whether we would actually have seen him had we not demanded to see him following our conversation with the anesthetist.
He explained again why they could not do the hernia and told us that he did know about the hernia – which contradicted what the anesthetist had told us an hour or so prior. We asked with regards to the problems that the cyst could cause with regards to my fertility. He told us that it would have nothing to do with my fertility. He thought that we were having the cyst removed because of its size. We told him about what the previous Dr had said in his absence to which he replied ‘Did we say that?’ He then said that having the cyst removed could actually compromise my fertility, which totally contradicts what his associate had told us in February!!
Following the operation I remember waking in the recovery room and being confused as to the time. I had been told that my operation would only last half an hour and it was nearly two and a half hours later. The first thing I said (other than demanding more pain killers) was ‘Did everything go OK?’ I was told that the Doctor would come and discuss the operation with me. I was aware that I would not be let home unless I eat, drank and went to the toilet so I was drinking water as soon as I returned to the ward. I was actually very thirsty anyway. As soon as I could, I asked the nurse if I could go to the toilet and wanted to go to the one on the ward as opposed to using a commode. I managed to sit up with help but then came over all faint and had to lie back down. I then had what I believe was a panic attack but it may just have been the fact that I felt so faint. While this was happening my anesthetist walked past and my nurse asked him to come in. They checked my blood pressure and found that it was low. As he was leaving my anesthetist asked me how I was and then said in a jovial manner ‘It didn’t go according to plan then?’ The way he told the story was that when my consultant saw my umbilical hernia scar he was surprised at its existence.
I was more than a little upset to find out on the off chance that the operation had not gone according to plan – especially as the anesthetic said it was because of apparent lack of knowledge of my umbilical hernia. At this stage we asked to see the consultant for him to explain exactly what happened. The female Dr came to see us again after about 45minutes of us asking. She explained why they could not do the operation – because of the umbilical hernia. We further requested to see my consultant; although I did not know who he was when he did arrive as this was the first time I had met him; although I have been under him since my first referral in August / September 2007 (8months). I still wonder whether we would actually have seen him had we not demanded to see him following our conversation with the anesthetist.
He explained again why they could not do the hernia and told us that he did know about the hernia – which contradicted what the anesthetist had told us an hour or so prior. We asked with regards to the problems that the cyst could cause with regards to my fertility. He told us that it would have nothing to do with my fertility. He thought that we were having the cyst removed because of its size. We told him about what the previous Dr had said in his absence to which he replied ‘Did we say that?’ He then said that having the cyst removed could actually compromise my fertility, which totally contradicts what his associate had told us in February!!
Wednesday, 7 May 2008
Blog Baby 7
Email from Luke and Rachel in Saudi - Hope you are well? Just wanted to let you know that Rachel gave birth to a lovely little boy on the 20th April and we have called him Jasper. Isn't he perfect?
Wednesday, 23 April 2008
Pre-Op Hospital Visit
Monday was my pre-op chat at the hospital. Blood, urine, heart, pulse etc. etc. Hated every minute of it!! I do hope I will be able to go through with the Op next Wednesday and don't do something stupid like faint or run off. I was really panicky on Monday and had to go to the toilet far too many times, but at least I could eat to boost up my strength. Good old emergency Snickers bar... Am not allowed to eat after midnight the day before my op. Water only until 6am on the morning of the Op.
It seems that I am 'fit for my op' and so next Wednesday I am to report to the ward at 7.30am and fingers crossed I could be out for tea time as it is a morning list. Just been reading the 'Information for Patients' leaflet and I can already feel the panic rising....
It seems that I am 'fit for my op' and so next Wednesday I am to report to the ward at 7.30am and fingers crossed I could be out for tea time as it is a morning list. Just been reading the 'Information for Patients' leaflet and I can already feel the panic rising....
Thursday, 10 April 2008
Turning the Corner
After many weeks of uncertainty in my life, I finally feel like I am getting somewhere. I have got myself a place on a Teaching Assistant Course and negotiated a morning in a local school. I have been and signed on, so hopefully should get my course paid for and some money coming in. I think I am feeling better about life in general...
Recently read The NLP Coach by Ian McDermott and Wendy Jago, Piatkus (2001) which was really just a positive thinking manual with longer words, but it did make a lot of sense.
Treating yourself as though you matter is the quickest way to help you feel that you do matter.
Once you stop thinking of yourself, your potential and your ways of operating as fixed and begin to treat them as processes, change becomes just another adjustment you can make.
It also made me analyse myself and how I appear to the world and how I want to appear. One thing the clairvoyant said when she came, was that I tend to put up a brick wall when it comes to my feelings. I always thought I was quite open with them, but recently I realise I talk about the facts of what happened rather than how I felt. I know I still have to deal with the emotions surrounding both the miscarriage and the death of my father. I have kept these at a distance but need to now bring them closer. Non-expression leads to Depression (Ian said) but each journey starts with a single step.....
Recently read The NLP Coach by Ian McDermott and Wendy Jago, Piatkus (2001) which was really just a positive thinking manual with longer words, but it did make a lot of sense.
Treating yourself as though you matter is the quickest way to help you feel that you do matter.
Once you stop thinking of yourself, your potential and your ways of operating as fixed and begin to treat them as processes, change becomes just another adjustment you can make.
It also made me analyse myself and how I appear to the world and how I want to appear. One thing the clairvoyant said when she came, was that I tend to put up a brick wall when it comes to my feelings. I always thought I was quite open with them, but recently I realise I talk about the facts of what happened rather than how I felt. I know I still have to deal with the emotions surrounding both the miscarriage and the death of my father. I have kept these at a distance but need to now bring them closer. Non-expression leads to Depression (Ian said) but each journey starts with a single step.....
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